High School was just plain uncomfortable. Kids at that age don't know how to act in their own skin, let alone know how to act around other people. Emotions are tested, beliefs are tested. If you look back, doesn't the whole time period just seem bizarre? I often don't understand when I hear people speak about High School as these glory days of the past that can never be lived up to... blech! Coincidentally most of the close friends I have did not enjoy their High School experience, but all agree how wonderful college is.
Lately (past 2 years or so) I've been trying to erase "awkward" from my life. I've lived too many days where I felt "awkward", that I am downright done with it. There are many situations one needs to be reminded. I find talking with people you've met but don't remember their name, sitting next to someone in class with nothing to say and elevators to be the true test to my mission. The worst one is riding an elevator with someone with a forgotten name with nothing to say... in Germany. Sometimes I try to pretend I have a text message and fiddle with my phone until my floor comes up. Mostly, I just take the stairs.
I bring this topic up because as summer approaches, I began to realize I don't have many friends here to go on walks outside, play Frisbee with, explore Freiburg, etc. One friend studies excessively with a boyfriend, another with a girlfriend, one who would rather watch TV show after TV show who might be allergic to the sun, and others who live just too far away. I'm in my make new friends phase, and there is no time for "awkward" to get in the way.
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